I want you to love me, but I don't think you will. I wander around as i repeat this to myself. It's the only answer I have, even if I'm scared of getting hurt. I'll say "I love you"to the one I love. Do you love me or not? I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know! No matter how badly I desire to be with you. There are so many unchangeable things in this world, and my love for you can't stopped by anyone.As 100o nights pass, I long to tell you... I have to let you know. Putting these feeling into words is so scary, but... The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words.That's why we can only smile. Why we sing "Do Re Mi"among the vivid autumn colors. With winter at our backs, and the spring sunbeams peeking through the leaves as to protect someone who's just been reborn.As I looked at the road I'd traveled and the path ahead, my eyes were filled with cowardice. I wanted to look into your eyes, but was afraid I wouldn't be honest.I didn't want to know that you didn't love me and live the rest of my days all alone. That day, i kept on loving you without getting hurt.Even if my feelings aren't returned, I can say "I love you"to the one i love... And that's the most beautiful thing in the world.
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Hello hello~! people who read my blog. hee~! well. today webcam with intan. long time never webcam with her. so we took some photo while webcam-ing. fun.. here the photo.. i love the first one. i look hot. but im not. hahaha!
Labels: thanks intan
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There was your heart, and there was mine. This love, torn apart by every word.
Is hopeless love all we have? Is this what we dreamed?
I cannot go.
Take this heart let it die slow. Tear away from the pain. Tear away from the red.
Are we trading in our hearts for emptiness?
Is this love or human condition?
I close my eyes to see you. Hope is in your name.
Where you are I cannot go.
Take, this heart and let it go
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To Alyy The CicakWoman.. heee...
I read your blog about your life and stuff.. Chill lah cutestuff/hotstuff.. hahaha...
Well, My story is just like yours.. I can go far in school but i choose not too.. Cause to me, it's like waste of time and stuff.. If i never stop schooling.. I'm be at Nafa now.. taking my Dipolma in fine art's.. But fuck that.. hahah! Don't worry.. Trust me.. You will go to school back.. And fuck the people WHO thinks that we don't have a life.. We have a life.. heh.. Smoking.. hmmm.. Well, remember i promise you that i cut down smoking.. i did cut down.. BUT now, i become not so a heavy smoker.. hahah.. but it's normal for people to smoke.. hahaha... And sometime you can be pain in the ass.. hee... To tell you the true.. I'm a loner too.. I'm not lie-ing.. I don't have a lot of friends.. (Just tell you. maybe you don't wanna know) You will get use to it.. Parents.. hmmm.. I don't wanna talk about it.. PARENTS SUCK!!!! hahahah!! Thats all i can say to you alyy.. heee.. And Please Please don't do anything stupid to yourself k. If you need someone to talk too.. Just text or call me. But somethings i can be busy.. hahah! Well. hope you smiling or laughing reading this stupid shit.. I want to tell you something.. I miss looking at your smile.. hahahah!!! REMEMBER THIS.. I still thinking and care about you. Cause your FRIEND!!!!! <3 So Cheep up.
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Hello there, People who read my blog.. hahah!! Guess what.. Today i'm 1 YEAR SINGLE!!!! YAY! hahah!! wtf.. And today i must get drunk and high.. hahah! Anyway yesterday i never turn up for the photoshoot.. hee.. Sorry.. I wake up late.. Well nvm.. Anyway life has been great, this month.. Meet alot of new friends and stuff.. And i have like 2 months to go before i ___ .. hahaha!! Well.. blog some another time.. IF i'm not busy.. Going to slack now.. bye bye..
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wish i had known sooner
but things dont always
go the way you think
doc said im dying
no, not great news
took me by surprise
3 months he said
not enough time
i have things to tell
people, stuff to do
let loved ones i
do love them a lot
and and and
i cant go, not now
really i cant
but....
i am
why didnt i do
some things before
should have done
maybe, i cant
get all done, i need to
more time God
please a month or two
first i have to cry
then......
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Hello people!!!It's been a long time, I never blog.. Been busy with alot of stuff nowdays! :D
Just to tell you guys that now i'm 11 months single!! hahah!!
I never know i can make it this far without love!! XD
Now i'm going to beat qissy pantat recond of being single...
3 years!!!! can i make it?? we shall see how lh!! :D
Anw i start skating back.. just to waste time! And it's so hard to find a job nowdays! *sign*
Skip the boring part!! XD
I'm glad, i got to contact back with my long lost friends back!! Yeeeessss arh!! XD
Well!!! I don't know what to talk about ready! Cause my life is full of boriness!!!
i don't belive in love!! LOVE SUCK!!!! HAHAHAHA!!! :D
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