I screamed out your name. Even my voice will probably never reach you.
But you know, now I'm ok with that. Some day in my heart you'll be.
I'll dream tonight, dreams of you. Because of that letter I put under my pillow.
My dreams are too cruel, my breath is cut off.
I always painfully awaken at four in the morning.
Time is too painful. The dreams don't stop.
Love freezes to death. Cold night on such a long night.
My consciousness splintered and powdered.
Memories scattered about holding your ring so tightly…
That my tears wet the pillow. So I couldn't hear it.
I blocked my ears…to your voice.
One more scar added to my wrist.
Melting into the wound... you...
I am breaking… Burning the letter…
It's reduced to ash… I am breaking …
Destroy my heart… I am breaking…
Losing you…
I love you… I love you… I love you…
I am breaking…
Losing you…
I love you!!!
Rest in peace…
I will always love you…
To my dear mithridate Cassandra…
This is one of those nights that i can't seem to sleep peacefully..I miss you my mithridate..
your smile, your laughter, your gentle touch, your scent, your kiss, the medicine to cure my pain..
your everything..although i've moved on, i do miss you every night when im alone in my bed..time heals slowly..
there are nights when i dreamt of you and how i wish i could be lost in those dreams..
and how i wish that the only reason my eyes would open is with you by my side..
Sometimes i wonder why you went away without saying goodbye..i need that..
We shared so many memories and has been thru alot together..And all those while you're sick and i don't even know it, you never show...
you're always so happy around me..i felt so fortunate for awhile to have you..and i would trade just about anything if God could keep you with me..
and i miss you still..no words to describe how im feeling right now..just silence..
the source of my loneliness..this pain, it won't go easily..how i wish this was just another lie..or perhaps a bad nightmare..
rest in peace.
i will always love you
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